2010 TASTES LIKE PATRON :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 @ members only and fiama

Hollister tank top. Dorothy Perkins tulip skirt. thrifted cropped denim vest. gray oxford booties from SM. mesh silver sling bag given by a friend. DIY layered necklace. cocktail ring from an accessory store.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!! 

my very first post for 2010! i can't wait to share more about fashion with y'all :) I AM CLAIMING THAT THIS YEAR WILL BE MY YEAR! so i am sure that it will show in the outfits :)

2009 was one of my sucky-est years! i swear on chanel that 2009 is really not my year. a lot of trials...from failed relationships, losing friends, unstable peace of mind and that "worst something" i can't share with you guys or even a lot of people for that matter. but you know what? when God gives me trials, He also helps me overcome them :) plus when he turned around the bad things, the good things were actually THE BEST! "good" is an understatement i must say :) :) God is a good God. He is very forgiving. i can never thank Him enough :) :) :)

so even if 2009 can considerably be the worst year of my life, i still ended it with a bang! i don't think i've ever been this excited to end a year! i was so looking forward to 2010 that the last few days of 2009 were actually the best days of my life! plus this can possibly be the last year i will spending it in the philippines so i wanted to make the most out of it and what better way to do that than to spend it with the people i love the most :) :) :)

went to member's only at the fort to drink the night away! tequilla rose got my tummy bloated and patron...Dear Patron, F*** YOU! Love, Dang...LMFAO!!!! yezzzz, patron nights are just beginning!!!! 2010 will be like patron...you don't want to take it but you will! and the aftermath will give you the feeling that you have conquered something...that you can take anything...even the worst kinds like yes, patron :) :) :) BRING IT ON 2010!!!!!!

as if drowning ourselves with patron and tequilla rose weren't enough, the whole gang still went to fiama to get our groove on! I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS IS WHAT BEING SINGLE FEELS LIKE! it feels so good that i'm afraid i'll get used to it!!! LOL. plus good news y'all, i really think that i am loosening up! the "carpe diem" side of me is showing her powers tremendously lately! i don't know if this is 100% a good thing but it did felt good that night! i did not sweat the small stuff and just went on wherever the sails took me! I LOVED IT!!!

so speaking of 2010, i really don't have any resolutions...i'm just thinking that i want to be more devoted to yoga. i also want to fulfill my "alone trip" before i get into dating again. i want to be really by myself for a while. but you know, love should not be thought about, i learned. when its there, you feel it. i've read somewhere that it is like a buzzer. it will buzz in your heart telling you that it is the right answer :)

so you know what? i am ready for whatever 2010 will bring to or for me!!! I AM SO READY!!!

P.S.
i got injured new year's eve c/o our neighbor's flying fireworks :( i have a big bruise on my leg now. its ouchie and its swollen :( but THANK YOU JESUS it's just minor!

stars, they're like us

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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this might be my last post for 2009! what are you doing this new year? better yet, who are you kissing when the clock strikes 12? :) :) :)

i am loving this entry from twenty or something
exactly how i am feeling!!!! happy new year everyone!!! :)

Someone once told me that 2009 was going to be a year of healing and hope. Looking back, seeing how far we�ve come, looking at where we are now, I know this to be true. It was a year of reflection, of understanding. It was a year of being lost, being found, and being in that in-between. It was, in fact, a year of healing � in every single possible way.

One of the hardest lessons I�ve learned this year, what I like to think of as my life lesson because I have a feeling I�ll always be attempting to understand and reconcile this fact, is the ability to let go.

People. Places. Objects. Feelings. Memories. I�ve held onto these things, clinging to them, unable to let go, even though I know I have to move on because they�ve always been my comfort, my safe zone. In a world that is ever-changing, I would hold fast to these for as long as I possibly could, until they, too, slipped away with time, with change. With what has always been inevitable.

Grace Boyle of Small Hands, Big Ideas, wrote an entry this week about reconciling loss that sparked these thoughts and reflection. It�s an absolutely beautiful post that moved me, that helped me to realize just why we hold on the way that we do, why it�s so hard to sometimes let go.

I wrote the following comment on her post, and, with her encouragement, am sharing it here as well. I encourage everyone to read her post and offer their thoughts there as well.

I think the older we get, the more things affect you, although we�re less likely to admit it. When you�re young, you just don�t understand things in the same way � you feel what you feel, but then you get up and you move on with barely a look back. That�s a childhood blessing, a lesson that I wish we could hang onto � and maybe some of us can. But I think when you get older, things affect you on a deeper level and so you hold onto it differently. When you�re a kid, you can scream and cry and acknowledge your feelings. When you experience loss, you miss what you have but you know how to move on. When you�re an adult, though, I think you feel more acutely, but that�s not really ok according to society. You�re supposed to get over it and move on and not look back at all.
Which, in my opinion, is kind of BS. Some things take longer to move on from. And sometimes healing doesn�t come with just the passing of time. As someone who is incredibly sensitive and empathetic by nature, I�ve come to understand that feeling what you feel doesn�t have to mean a sign of weakness. This past year alone, I�ve learned that a person is capable of such strong emotions � that�s a part of being human � and I have learned to live and love that very mantra �feel what you feel.�
I think we need to realize that we�re human, that having emotions are acceptable because that is really what makes us different. We mourn our losses and we acknowledge our fears because that�s what helps us to appreciate what we have and celebrate what once was; knowing our fears is what helps us to face them and grow, learn.
Distractions are great and can help lessen the blow, can offer some perspective, some time. But in the end, they�re only that: distractions.
Feel what you need to feel and never, ever be ashamed for it. Because those feelings? That�s also what makes you you.

Sometimes, I�ve begun to learn, you have to move on. Sometimes, when faced with losses � no matter what kind, no matter when it happens, and no matter the depth of your grief � it�s hard to reconcile, it takes time. But that letting go and moving on can only come with the acknowledgement of what you feel and how you�ve changed. As Grace so beautifully writes, �that piece of you is changed forever and it�s okay.�

As much as I may want to, I�m beginning to see now that you can�t hide in the past, holding onto what once was because you�re afraid of change, afraid of those emotions, burying them because acknowledging them would mean acknowledging what you�ve lost.

What I�ve always known but am finally beginning to understand, thanks to Grace, thanks to others, thanks to this year, is that loss doesn�t mean then and now, but rather a blend of them both.

Because those people, places, objects, feelings, memories? You carry them with you, into a future that�s still there, still waiting.

Favorite Hair Things of 2009

This year has been great for my hair. I learned a lot about caring for it and I am happy that all the time and dedication is showing by my hairs health. I have regain love for some old things and developed love for some new things.

I can't believe that I went so long without know about coconut oil. It has worked wonders for my hair-it is so much softer. Shea butter has been a constant in my life for years and my hair still loves it. I mixed coconut oil and shea together- my hair said WOW.

The EZ comb is a great invention-I wish I would have thought of that. Buns have been an awesome protective style, this is the first time in my life wearing them and I have never depended on hair pins so much. I used to not care if I owned any at all.

Giovanni.....where have you been all my life. Most of my products just get the job done but that Tea Tree Conditioner actually made me say WOW. I never thought about using castor oil on my hair...I never knew it was good for more than...well you know.

I am finally an owner of a satin pillowcase and guess what....I am not raking little broken hairs out of the bed anymore. I even got one for my hubby. Lustrasilk is my staple deep conditioner I haven't even tried another one. Olive oil....never purchased it before I started caring for my hair. I didn't even cook with it. Now I do everything with it. Goody headbands....great for those bad hair days :)

If it wasn't for my shower comb....I would probably be bald. Detangling is not fun but that comb makes it easier. Aloe Vera gel is just great. I just need a plant now and I will feel complete. LOL

Sunday Style & Christmas Day hair

My attempt at the faux hawk

Because of the length of my hair, the "hawk" portion falls down. I want it to stick up more, I am going to work on that next time.

I liked the style and it lasted me for three days

M.

 

 

 

 

 

TRF striped off shoulder top. gray extra skinny jeans from SM department store. B Club boots and bag. Ray Ban aviator. cuff from Metrowalk. cocktail ring given  by a friend.

amazing race partner/cousin karla and i hit the theathers again! this time for "I Love You, Goodbye". as usual, arrived in GB at 9 when the showing time is 9:15. didn't expect that there were no seats left AT ALL. as in ni isang butal...WALA! had to take the LFS at 11:30PM!

ayan. drinks at M cafe muna tuloy. did you ever go to a movie drunk?? well, we weren't naman...just blurry. LOL. super talkies and catch up. i kinda like it when toshi (my cousin's hubby) is not around cos we can do whatever we want. LOL.

oh i forgot, before going out we watched "The Rebound" over ruffles, M&Ms and fit n right. i love love the movie! it made me cry but it also made me feel better. i used to not believe in fate or destiny but growing up, i learned that it is true indeed. what is bound to happen will happen...no matter how much you avoid it. no matter how how long it takes. as paulo coelho would say, �When you want something, all the universeconspires in helping you to achieve it.�  i think it goes the same for love... when it is meant to be, it is. if not, it was never yours.

you know that scene in 500 days of summer? the one at the bench? when summer was telling tom why she didn't show up? that she met her husband that day in the cafe?

SUMMER: i just woke up one morning and knew. 

TOM: knew what? 

SUMMER: what i was never sure of with you.

i think that you can never fake it. it is either there or not. when you love someone, it is not a maybe thing. you know. you feel it in your heart. i am too tired of faking. i can never pretend anymore. that is what i learned from my last relationship...which is why i applied it on to the next. no, it wasn't exactly a "relationship" per se but i liked someone. sad to say but TIMING IS EVERYTHING and he came at the wrong time. plus, i learned that his intentions were not pure. you know what? just because you took a girl out to dinner and some more does not mean you own her and girls should know that they are not obliged to give something back out of guilt or confusion or sympathy. when you are 25 and you know that LOVE CAN WAIT, it is better to say "no" than to hurt yourself by saying "yes". watch "He's Not Just That Into You" before you give in because maybe you too are not just that into him *wink*

going back to "I Love You, Goodbye"....my fave line from the movie:

"Gusto ko nang lalaking magmamahal sakin, at mamahalin ko rin siya." 

i think it is really that simple. you just want to love and be loved by someone. there should be no complexities. 

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about the outfit, these are the things i bought last xmas day shopping :) i am in love with the jeans!!!!!

detour

The Boutique: Bed and Breakfast

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Horseback Riding

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Zara studded top. thrifted shorts. Janeo biker boots. chained white sling bag from a bazaar. cocktail ring and bangles from an accessory store.

so we were supposed to go the enchanted kingdom last saturday but after being stuck in traffic and learning that we have to wait in line for two effing hours to get in, we backed out! thought of a back up plan and there is no other better place to go to in the south than tagaytay, beybeh!!!! :)

arrived in tagaytay around 5 so we were too late for zipline :( horseback riding instead...yes, in the dark. going in circles. not fun.

dinner at hawaiian barbecue at the boutique. i've missed hawaiian bbq!!!! so much memories from the boracay branch...HMM. anyway, i love love the boutique. i must check in...in I SURRENDER or should i be open to I LOVE?

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nephew loved the bubble gun gift! they all went gaga over it!