...but i don't want to.
as you all know, i am in love with chanel. i am gaga over chanel!!! i live and breathe chanel! if i have all the money in the world, i will buy chanel today, tomorrow, the next and the next day!!! yes, it is 2010 but my love for chanel has never changed. will never ever, i think.
so anyway, holiday season will be officially over tomorrow! we all need to go back to reality...work out our fat asses and fill our pockets with money from work again. i must admit...i actually missed working/writing. i missed not being too caught up with the facebook world. i now know every single detail about each friend i have just because i have nothing better to do than snoop around. not fun, all the time, i must say.
another not fun part, my tummy. it is saying "hello you!" already. i need to start yoga, cardio, diet...all the works! tomorrow. i miss miss yoga! i want to be devoted! i want to join a bikram class! i want to be really really healthy! i want to detox again from alcohol...PATRON ESPECIALLY!!!! i want to get a massage too! i really can't wait to start my 2010 right!!!
i hope that i can take some action on my goals this 2010. i'm always setting goals but i am not taking action to achieve them...either i'm too afraid to commit or i'm just plain lazy. so THE goals:
*travel alone (i had this idea of living in boracay for a month...i want to be on my own. actually, i have friends from there since i lived there before too but back then, i lived with my bf for a month. i just like the idea of waking up in the morning, running by the shore or doing yoga while the sun is just rising :) having breakfast by the sea while reading a book :) then come afternoon, i'll skimboard with my friends and have cocktails during happy hour :) end the night either dancing or just staring at the moon, the wind blowing my hair. ahhhh!!! the life!!!! i want it but i am too scared to get out of my comfort zone. i am REALLY REALLY scared to hell to be alone. to be without TV. to be without friends. but i know that someday, i might have to face this fear. i don't know when i will have the guts to do so but i have to. i just have to.)
*study styling in FIP (it's just a short course that you have to do on mondays for about 2 months i think but i am thinking if it is worth it ba. i'm just torn because i would love to have a professional background in fashion but then again when i think about it, why do i need it when i know that you can learn more from the streets? i'm going to pay for my tuition so i'm really really torn!!! should i just use the money for shopping or traveling?)
so you guys!!!! please help me!!! im in a rut. im torn!!! im scared!!! with that, maybe i should just read this over and over again...from one of my fave movies...
"So never refuse an invitation, never resist the unfamiliar, never fail to be polite and never outstay the welcome. Just keep your mind open and suck in the experience. And if it hurts, you know what? It�s probably worth it."
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